It has been a busy time with the Holidays, jobs and meetings. I would like to let go of what the Holidays should be and accept them for what they are. In some ways it is just too hard for me to look  inside
of feelings from the old days. H is acting up again as he usually does during Holidays. But how much do I play into this madness? Keep the focus on me and not what he is doing. I get  caught up in how much he hurts me, the victim.