Sunday, July 28, 2013

Working out just fine

Foggy weekend took me into a sad place but ok. I felt it but didnt attach all the way. My niece living with us
is moving tomorrow after one month. It was a challenge but it all worked out in the end.
I attached to wanting things to turn out a certain way.
When letting go and trusting HP has a plan it freed me up to be with her in the moment more.
It went fine couple times it got tricky but it all worked out just fine.

In meditation this Friday there was a second of peace that I rested in...but then when I want it more and more it disappears. But then in the back i felt fear it was just around the corner in a small voice but there..
Not running from it like I have in the past maybe I can examine it and learn more.
Working with a sponsor and turning to the program has embraced me to experience more.

"Nothing we see and hear is perfect. But right there in the imperfection is perfect reality".
Suzuki Roshi

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Finding Happiness

I dont read my blogs as much as I did in the beginning of my program days.
But I still come to it weekly to check others writings. It is still an important part of my recovery reaching out getting honest...mainly to realize that I am not alone in my sufferings. There are others out there that
also share in my struggles and that it can change. It has moved into a calmer life for me.
One day at a time it can for you also. It is important still for me to attend meetings, work with a sponsor and work the steps.

"We, too, were lonely
and frustrated, but in Al-Anon we discover that no
situation is really hopeless and that it is possible for
us to find contentment, and even happiness, whether
the alcoholic is still drinking or not.”

Sunday, July 14, 2013


Tonight I went to meditation. It was calming despite the comment made from a member who was struggling with suicidal thoughts.
Witnessing his pain without fixing him was freeing.
Suffering and the release from suffering