Just got out of Thursday night Alanon meeting. A few people in the group have been very supportive of me while others haven't over the last year. I wanted people to come up and hug me and let me know it would be alright. Keep coming back. Some did welcome me while others just ignored me. That happens some people are just in their own space of sadness maybe.
But I seem to forget the loving members they really do try, I need to believe that everyone is trying the best they can. I am a fragile person in many ways looking for an opportunity to retreat into myself. But in many ways these are the beginnings of resentments they too are a way to hide. I feel like I have to figure it all out but I really don't....
I don't have to understand everything. Some things are not my business, and others will simply never make sense to me.
Sometimes just showing up for myself in life is enough. This can mean going to a meeting despite my feelings. Or I can change meetings and find new ones to attend. I have choices. This is important for me to remember.
"I no longer have to depend on any one person or situation in order to get on with my day. Today I have choices."
Gratitude
1. HP is always watching over me
2. 12 steps are my tool kit
3. I sometimes go the Hardware store to buy milk
4. Sun and Beach are a good combination and it was a great day today
"Consider the little mouse, how sagacious an animal it is which never entrusts his life to one hole only."
Plautus
2 comments:
I hear you. What helped me was to keep looking inside of me and those who came form the group to hug and understand were a blessing I did not expect.
Wishing you a good weekend my friend.
I have found that the more I attend the same meeting, the more I get to know the people. I also got involved in doing service work which opened so many doors. I got to help others and helped myself at the same time. Just doing things like helping put out the literature and the chairs will allow you to meet others.
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