From moment to moment, we can choose how we relate to our emotions. This power of choice gives us freedom, and it would be crazy not to take advantage of it.
Pema Chodron
Tonight I left the meeting feeling sad, alone rejected. I am tired it was a long day full of work and being on top of it all. One of the women in this Alanon group is very loving and welcoming. I will not forget how she spoke to me when I called her Christmas day. She tries every hard to welcome the newcomers and I feel that.
She cares and the program nurtures her.
But as I was leaving the rooms tonight I also focused on the other woman who has never taken the time to welcome or chat to me. Why am I drawn to these feelings and experiences? It's one way that I relate to the world, my disappointments. They do have validity my feelings of rejections. Yes, she is a very distant person toward me but her actions are not who I am. I can feel many different ways toward this ongoing situatuion with her or I can learn more of who I am with these feelings.
When the teachings tell us to “make friends with our emotions,” they mean to become more attentive and get to know them better. Being ignorant about emotions only makes matters worse; feeling guilty or ashamed of them does the same. Struggling against them is equally nonproductive. The only way to dissolve their power is with our wholehearted, intelligent attention.
I am tired and feeling stressed. This upcoming grant proposal has me feeling anxious. I walk through it one step at a time with the help of my program and my HP.
Gratitude
1. For my Program
2. My Husband and our life together
3. HP has never left
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I think it's the expectations that others will treat me as I would treat them. I often expect too much of others because I have expected so much of myself for years. Letting go of those expectations increased my gratitude enormously.
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